Yes, it’s another blog post inspired by a Lady Gaga song. No, wait, come back! It’s only inspired by, not based on a true story!
Although that’s what I would like it to be. Allow me to explain.
How many of us are what we want to be?
In your mind, you might be Superman/ Batman/ Catwoman, but the truth is that many of us are really more Clark Kent/ Bruce Wayne / Selina Kyle (And the sexism of Clark and Bruce being kinda awesome as they are, while Selina pretty much sucks is another issue that I’m itching to scratch at, but another time)
But that’s ok. It’s not a sad, it just is. I’ve had this realization with my aspirations to be a gypsy.
In the song, Gypsy, she sings about being happy on the move, but also about the ambivalence of not wanting to be alone.
“Thought that I would be alone forever. But I won’t be tonight”
This ambivalence brings to mind the thought that I am a gypsy – carefree, unattached, roaming and ever-transient; a soul of the wind, directionless, my heart on a cloud.
The truth is, I’m only a mild version of this. I’m gypsy lite.
I love being out, on the road, in the air, a train with only a backpack and a notebook and pen (my staples) and no idea where I’m headed. But then the reality of the tracks taking me to an unsafe area, or the flashing red light of a car reminds me that freedom in the literal (or literary, Romantic) sense might not be as attainable as I’d thought.
Sometimes we think we want love and romance because that’s all we know. In our minds we are going to run through meadows, twirl, and gaze at each other’s eyes all day. In reality it’s a lot more Selina Kyle where we have clammy palms, morning breath, bloodshot eyes and petty arguments. And that’s fantastic! You might not be the expected version of what you thought you were meant to be, but that’s the beauty of it – your journey is all yours.
I might not be able to navigate my way through borders of expectations, or a sea of confusion, but I certainly know how to define and read my own map.
So yes, I am a gypsy. And I do it the best way I know how.
<p>Author <a href=”https://plus.google.com/102128103971030481396” target=”blank” rel=”author”>Jerome Cornelius</a></p>